startarebellion

It was odd how much Galen was enjoying his training these days. He had always worked hard at it before, doing his best to push himself to his limits and beyond to excel. But that sort of motivation was always due to the knowledge that failure meant death or worse. Vader would accept nothing less.

Now though he enjoyed it just for the pure joy of pushing himself because he could. Well, maybe he didn't enjoy training with the Force as much, just because it meant he got frustrated and frustration lead to the anger and anger lead to the Dark Side and that's what he was trying to avoid. It was almost ironic that trying to not use the Dark Side of the Force risked him falling into the Dark Side of the Force. The one thing that he had going for him though was that he wasn't trying to avoid being seduced by the Dark Side. He'd been there already and had no desire to return to it so in some ways it was probably easier for him to avoid than it was for most Jedi.

But the physical aspects of it? Just running and jumping and climbing? Galen was finding more and more that he loved it. He would happily spend all day running through a city or a forest, anything to keep moving and focus on nothing but the thrill of it. He could block out all his other worries and frustrations and just focus on moving. Days like that were rare but he did his best to take full advantage of them.

Today had been a day like that where he spend almost the entire day exploring the surrounding areas on a run. Evening found him returning to his quarters to shower off and just enjoy the clarity that he was feeling. Out of the shower he was feeling clean and refreshed so he pulled on a pair of pants and contemplated focusing on his studies with the Force. He really didn't want to do that though and hoped that something would come along to distract him.

Luke was gone. He'd been gone for a while now but for some reason Galen had been hoping that Luke would come back. He told himself that it was because Rey needed to Luke to teacher her but that was only part of it. Mara could train Jade if it came to that. The truth was that Galen had liked the Jedi and this place wouldn't be as pleasant now that Luke was gone.

Galen wasn't sure what to do with that, how to process it. He'd never really missed anyone like that before. The closest thing he had was losing Proxy and even that was different. That had been worse and at the time he'd had the Dark Side to help him channel all his anger and rage. This was new.

So he headed to the Millennium Falcon to see Rey. He didn't know if she would be able to help him understand how he felt or what to do but he did know that things always felt better when he was around Rey. At the very least seeing her would cheer him up a little.