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Jun. 3rd, 2019 07:56 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
startarebellionIt was odd how much Galen was enjoying his training these days. He had always worked hard at it before, doing his best to push himself to his limits and beyond to excel. But that sort of motivation was always due to the knowledge that failure meant death or worse. Vader would accept nothing less.
Now though he enjoyed it just for the pure joy of pushing himself because he could. Well, maybe he didn't enjoy training with the Force as much, just because it meant he got frustrated and frustration lead to the anger and anger lead to the Dark Side and that's what he was trying to avoid. It was almost ironic that trying to not use the Dark Side of the Force risked him falling into the Dark Side of the Force. The one thing that he had going for him though was that he wasn't trying to avoid being seduced by the Dark Side. He'd been there already and had no desire to return to it so in some ways it was probably easier for him to avoid than it was for most Jedi.
But the physical aspects of it? Just running and jumping and climbing? Galen was finding more and more that he loved it. He would happily spend all day running through a city or a forest, anything to keep moving and focus on nothing but the thrill of it. He could block out all his other worries and frustrations and just focus on moving. Days like that were rare but he did his best to take full advantage of them.
Today had been a day like that where he spend almost the entire day exploring the surrounding areas on a run. Evening found him returning to his quarters to shower off and just enjoy the clarity that he was feeling. Out of the shower he was feeling clean and refreshed so he pulled on a pair of pants and contemplated focusing on his studies with the Force. He really didn't want to do that though and hoped that something would come along to distract him.
Now though he enjoyed it just for the pure joy of pushing himself because he could. Well, maybe he didn't enjoy training with the Force as much, just because it meant he got frustrated and frustration lead to the anger and anger lead to the Dark Side and that's what he was trying to avoid. It was almost ironic that trying to not use the Dark Side of the Force risked him falling into the Dark Side of the Force. The one thing that he had going for him though was that he wasn't trying to avoid being seduced by the Dark Side. He'd been there already and had no desire to return to it so in some ways it was probably easier for him to avoid than it was for most Jedi.
But the physical aspects of it? Just running and jumping and climbing? Galen was finding more and more that he loved it. He would happily spend all day running through a city or a forest, anything to keep moving and focus on nothing but the thrill of it. He could block out all his other worries and frustrations and just focus on moving. Days like that were rare but he did his best to take full advantage of them.
Today had been a day like that where he spend almost the entire day exploring the surrounding areas on a run. Evening found him returning to his quarters to shower off and just enjoy the clarity that he was feeling. Out of the shower he was feeling clean and refreshed so he pulled on a pair of pants and contemplated focusing on his studies with the Force. He really didn't want to do that though and hoped that something would come along to distract him.
